Pour your Heart Out

So my OBF (other.best.friend) convinced/persuaded me to sign up for a half marathon.....now all I can think is 'what the crap am I thinkin?' I am so not a runner, I am not in a complete and physical state to do this race. Granted I will be walking most of it....she knows that already.....I will run parts of it just to push myself and get to the finish line within four hours. I went to the greenway this morning and it took me 2:45 to do 7.5 miles. I'm not sure if thats good or bad, probably b.a.d. I drank some Gatorade before I began but near the end I was becoming dehydrated and disoriented. I just kept pushing through and finally made it back to my van. I drank the rest of the Gatorade and another whole bottle of water.  I wont do that again!

When I think about where I was physically 10 yrs ago, I am glad that I have changed my lifestyle to become more healthy and active but I just keep doubting myself with this stupid marathon. I just keep saying to myself "I can't" even though I know I can Its not going to be easy, especially physically easy. For those who don't know, I have metal rods in my back from childhood scoliosis. I don't have a strong core which is essential to running but I can endure a lot. I want to prove to myself that I can conquer this marathon even though my brain likes to sabotage my emotions. There are 24 days left til showtime. I'm sure I will be excited and ready to get it over with. And there will be lots of water stations so I know I won't get dehydrated. I know it will be something I can be proud of. I will keep you posted on the outcome. Say a little prayer for me, that I can do this w/o too much physical pain!