Sep 1, 2010

Pour your Heart Out

So my OBF ( convinced/persuaded me to sign up for a half all I can think is 'what the crap am I thinkin?' I am so not a runner, I am not in a complete and physical state to do this race. Granted I will be walking most of it....she knows that already.....I will run parts of it just to push myself and get to the finish line within four hours. I went to the greenway this morning and it took me 2:45 to do 7.5 miles. I'm not sure if thats good or bad, probably b.a.d. I drank some Gatorade before I began but near the end I was becoming dehydrated and disoriented. I just kept pushing through and finally made it back to my van. I drank the rest of the Gatorade and another whole bottle of water.  I wont do that again!
When I think about where I was physically 10 yrs ago, I am glad that I have changed my lifestyle to become more healthy and active but I just keep doubting myself with this stupid marathon. I just keep saying to myself "I can't" even though I know I can Its not going to be easy, especially physically easy. For those who don't know, I have metal rods in my back from childhood scoliosis. I don't have a strong core which is essential to running but I can endure a lot. I want to prove to myself that I can conquer this marathon even though my brain likes to sabotage my emotions. There are 24 days left til showtime. I'm sure I will be excited and ready to get it over with. And there will be lots of water stations so I know I won't get dehydrated. I know it will be something I can be proud of. I will keep you posted on the outcome. Say a little prayer for me, that I can do this w/o too much physical pain!


  1. Hi there...came by from The Things I Can't Say Wednesday meme...I'm your newest follower.

    I applaud you for trying. That's all any of us can ever do. Take it easy, prepare yourself for it and work on training your body for it. I always said I wanted to do a marathon, but I've never actually gotten up and made the move to sign up. So you are one up on me. Good luck.

    The Things We Find Inside

  2. Wow, I'm impressed that you are doing this! Sending a prayer and let us know how it goes!