The Empty Spot

Its Christmas Eve...again.its always crazy to think and believe how fast it gets here. I was on the fence about writing a blog post only because I feel like what I say may not matter much but if for any other reason, it's a post I can look back on and remember what I was thinking and feeling. I kept thinking about a title for this post. I call it the "Empty Spot". Many of my friends and family and those that are near & far from me have an "Empty Spot". It's the space in your heart that's been torn apart when you lose someone or something you dearly loved. Loss is no respect of of man, title, position, wealth, or even fame. I know I'm not the only one that reminisces and goes into my mental file box of memories and wishes to have one more day, one more chance to change the scenario, one more word or deed to make a difference. But, we all have the "empty spot", remembered especially on holidays like these. The good news is that over two thousand years ago, God decided to send a baby boy named Jesus to fill in the "spot". I can't tell you that the spot ever really goes away, it might get a bit smaller, the edges a little softer, or filled in a little with something or someone new. That's kind of what happened to me this week and even in the months previous to Christmas. I was blessed to become a mom to Grant and he is my greatest joy (even when we fight). Then God created and sent this little girl into our lives. The short story about her is she came into my mom's foster care ten days after she was born. She was with her for 1 year and then returned to her paternal grandparents for 90 days. Even though she isn't blood, we made het a part of our family in every way. My mom petitioned for legal custody and on Nov. 6th, miracle occurred and she was reunited with us! I thought my heart was going to explode out of my body when I got the news that my mom had won custody of her. Fast forward to now, she is a full blown toddler full of spunk, sass, and smarts. She was custom made for us. As I was holding her today in church and the candles were being lit, I couldn't help but choke back the tears knowing that only God knew how much I needed this baby to fill in and soften my "spot". My heart was being filled with love and joy. So, if you're one of those people with an "Empty Spot", I know and pray that God will fill it in for you. After all, he sent Jesus to us so he could fill the world with love, mercy, grace, and the promise of eternal life Merry Christmas!