I Remember Me

It's been way too long since I last blogged. It used to be very therapeutic, a way to vent, a way to share life, the ups and downs, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I guess I decided to fall off the blog wagon for awhile while I attended to all the "hell" I was going through. It would take me writing a 'based on a true story' novel (which I am almost sure would hit the NY Best Sellaers List) to explain it all. 
Today, I asked God to show me some things in my life that I needed clarification on. Sometimes, when yoou think you SHOULD trust your intuition, you end up not doing it. So, asking God for a "sign" so to to speak was important for me so I could make a decision. Well, thankfully this time He came through. I should have trusted my gut but as a woman who contantly second guesses herself, I ignored it and yes....now I feel really stupid. 
Which brings me to the pont of this blog title. Jennifer Hudson sings a song called "I remember Me". She wrote it after her mother and nephew were murdered by a family member. The song speaks to me becuase through her pain of losing loved ones, she still had to remember herself and what made her who she is. You see, I went through a period of time this year where I lost myself. In so many different ways. There are  various reasons and circumstances behind it but I take responsibility for my choices. I listened to that song today coming home from taking the boy to his dad's place. The thing I have to remind myself of is that I am a strong person. No matter what life has thrown at me and even how I have responded to it, has made me remember that God has used every thing to make me realize and acknowledge that I HAVE to remember me. Who I am, what I do, where I go, day in and day out. It's a turning point. Simply that....turning back to God and remembering who I am....in his eyes and in his heart. Thank you God for the ability to have intuition. Help me to not ignore it again. :D